A BIRD, A BOOK, AND A CABIN

“The Bird of Time has but a little way
To flutter—and the Bird is on the Wing.”

—Rubáiyát of Omar Khayyám, 1120 C.E.

I rolled out of bed at 5:30 a.m. at a fishing lodge in Michigan to go see a bird. I’m really not a birder, so that was an ungodly hour for me, and as a Philly-born, Washington DC-area resident, I had no particular affinity for the Midwest, either. Nevertheless, I was with my birder spouse Neil and some birding friends, and we were signed up for a 7:00 a.m. tour with Michigan Audubon, in cooperation with the Michigan Department of Natural Resources and the U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service. After hitting a diner for eggs and coffee, we drove over to Hartwick Pines State Park with hopes of seeing a once-in-a-lifetime life lister.
Although I’ve always been more into scenic landscapes than cataloguing all the tiny beautiful things of the world, I go ga-ga for birds with a wow factor: the flaming salmon color of the American Flamingo in the British Virgin Islands, the Fruit Loops appeal of the Keel-billed Toucan and Scarlet Macaw in Costa Rica, the accidentals and rarities that sometimes show up in the Mid-Atlantic, like a rainbow-hued Painted Bunting in Maryland.
I’m not so into the LBJs (little brown jobs), but I’m a sucker for the flashy and the rare.
And what is the ultimate rare? The endangered.
That is how I came to personally plan that improbable birding trip to Grayling, Michigan. The idea in May 2016 was for us to lay eyes on the Kirtland’s Warbler, one of North America’s most endangered birds—before it went extinct.
The birds are fussy about geography: In North America, they breed only in the forests near Grayling, a very small range where they return each spring after wintering in the Bahamas. The birds are particular about their trees—they will nest only on the ground in jack pine forests that are 4 to 25 years old and approximately 5 to 20 feet tall, in an area of at least 80 acres. The trees have requirements for reproduction, too—their cones are sealed with a resin that requires heat, usually provided by fire, to open and liberate the seeds. Decades of humans suppressing natural fires reduced the number of trees of the right specifications, thus reducing the warblers’ habitat, until only about 400 birds remained in the world.
The Kirtland’s have also suffered from the effects of Brown-headed Cowbirds, a native but pesty species that has been parasitizing nests—laying their own eggs in Kirtland’s nests for Kirtland’s parents to raise, displacing Kirtland’s eggs in the process. State and federal wildlife managers have been trapping cowbirds to protect the Kirtland’s Warbler. At the same time, managers have been planting, cutting, and replanting forests per this migratory songbird’s detailed specifications for almost 40 years, to maintain a suitable habitat to save them.
…Which is how we ended up there in the very precisely managed forest on a brisk day, holding up our binoculars in the rising sun.

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Twelve years earlier, in 2004, another DC-area resident, the writer Elinor Horwitz— a woman I did not yet know but who would eventually put my and Neil’s photo on her refrigerator along with her grandchildren’s drawings—made the same offbeat trip, with her husband Norman. She was 75 years old on her trip; I was 45 on mine.
She hatched her plan while birding in the rain along the Potomac River with Norman, when a fellow birder planted the seed of the Kirtland’s in her mind. “Although birding trips are something Norman and I do,” she wrote in an unpublished manuscript, “driving from Washington, DC to Grayling, Michigan, to see one bird suddenly seemed a lot more harebrained than, say, flying off for two weeks to Kenya or Thailand.”
Once in the Upper Peninsula, her Fish & Wildlife Service guide explained that the Kirtland’s numbered only 200 singing males in North America in 1971 and was one of the first species listed as endangered after the Endangered Species Act was passed in 1973.
Her guide was decked out in “seriously protective rain gear,” Elinor wrote, while she and Norman were in “short rain jackets and sneakers” and “squished into the woods.” The rain, she said, kept the birds inactive, but not the insects—and biting ones, at that. To pass the time in the rain, the guide showed them a jack pine cone. Elinor noted the sandy soil of the forest. They heard a Chipping Sparrow, Hermit Thrush, junco, robin, Cedar Waxwing, and Scarlet Tanager. But, she bemoaned, “They were not the guys we’d come to see.”
Twelve years later, we would compare notes on our journeys.

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In 2012, during our search for a simple weekend dwelling in Rappahannock County, Virginia—a little-developed bucolic area in the foothills of the Blue Ridge Mountains where Neil and I got married in the 90s and spent much time while hiking in Shenandoah National Park—our real estate agents found a rental they thought we’ll like.
It was on roughly 40 acres of forested terrain surrounded by the national park on three sides, a one-room cabin at the top of a winding, half-mile driveway, overlooking a pond, a meadow, and the mountains, a quiet getaway far from our normal lives.
I couldn’t make it out to see the place on the day the agents were available, so Neil drove there on his own. He liked the look of it: a contemporary 1970s vibe and floor-to-ceiling windows. The walls, ceiling, and floors were all made of tongue-in-groove knotty pine boards with intricate, artistic wood-grain stripes and swirls that emit a golden glow.
I was back home working on a journey-through-history memoir about our hiking experiences in and the history of Shenandoah National Park, struggling to finish it and get it published. So when the agents mentioned to Neil that the place was owned by the parents of Pulitzer Prize-winning journalist Tony Horwitz—author of Confederates in the Attic: Dispatches from the Unfinished Civil War, a travel journey through the South that was, at the time, one of my favorite nonfiction books—Neil knew it was the place for us. He signed our first lease for a year. Perhaps, he thought, this hideaway would be good karma for my book; perhaps the vibe of Tony Horwitz would rub off.

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On a Sunday afternoon in 1973, Elinor and Norman Horwitz bought that vast chunk of land two hours from their stately Maryland home “in a fit of passion,” as Elinor wrote in a 1974 Washingtonian article, and decided to build a do-it-yourself shelter. It would become the centerpiece of my and Neil’s world during our mid-life years.
Neither of them had any experience in carpentry or house building.
“What we kept insisting we wanted all along was ‘simply a shelter,’ a place where we could sleep at a slight remove from God’s other country-loving creatures,” she wrote. So they bought a kit to build a 12’ x 12’ square with a covered porch, with no running water or electricity. According to the New Hampshire company’s 1971 brochure,

The underlying philosophy of Shelter-Kit Incorporated is to develop a house…[that]

can be completely assembled by two persons – with no prior building skills – in four days.

To prepare, she explained, Tony, a teenager, “put up a monkey swing in the tallest white oak in the area.” At the same time, Norman, a neurosurgeon in DC (who operated on the police officer wounded in Reagan assassination attempt), had to remain on call, so he “convinced the telephone company to put a phone in a weatherproof box on the next oak over.
“The place,” she wrote, “was beginning to look like home.”
Everything needed for cabin construction was contained in 50 packages with 50 pages of instructions and hand drawings. “How two ordinarily skeptical adults … decided they could build a house over Thanksgiving weekend is a bit difficult to reconstruct,” Elinor wrote. “The idea was that if two people could do the job in four days, then eleven people (husband, wife, three large children, hearty visiting grandparents, four enthusiastic young friends) could surely do it in three and eat turkey besides. We were undeterred by the fact that we found the large construction manual impenetrable.”
After setting off “willy-nilly” to dig and pour the concrete footings, she deemed it a “bad weekend.” By Thanksgiving morning, she reported, “it was apparent that we’d been more imprecise than we’d imagined.”
On the second day, they assembled and raised the frame “with great triumph,” but on the third day “nothing fit.” Beams were installed upside down, and A-1 brackets were placed where the A-2 brackets should have been. They had to take the frame down, and on Sunday, the holiday weekend was over. The Horwitzes went back home, surrounded by their collection of Persian miniatures and Islamic pottery, a place where I would one day be invited to lunch with Ellie to talk about writing and the cabin while eating quiche on the screened-in porch.
Months and years after the Thanksgiving ordeal—before the Horwitzes modernized the cabin the way Neil and I would come to know it, with indoor plumbing and baseboard heat, a small modern kitchen and full bathroom, and moved the old rotary-dial telephone to the bathroom wall—Elinor was able to see the grace in the project. “Part of the charm, we decided, was that—like the Parthenon—it had no two parallel lines. The spring water is delicious. At night we sit by the radiant heat of the stove and reminisce. When you’ve washed in a bucket and snuggled into the 48-inch-wide top bunk, and the oak tree out back begins to ring like crazy—it’s pretty surreal.”

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In Michigan, it was sunny and warm. Though I was prepared to wait out the big sighting for hours without complaint, as I know birding sometimes requires, the small crowd of bird nerds didn’t have to crane our necks into “warbler neck” for long before we saw them: the singing males, with their bright lemon-yellow breast and grey body. They flitted around at the tips of their beloved jack pines, pumping their tails, and warbling like they owned the place. I couldn’t exactly say I was disappointed at how easy it was to lay eyes on and hear that rare bird, once we flew all the way to Detroit and drove to where they live, but it did feel a bit anticlimactic. There were no close calls, no moments of dramatic tension. We came, we saw.
For Elinor and Norman’s trip, things weren’t quite as easy. They had to stand in the “uninviting woods” in a “downpour” and wait. Elinor’s pants were soaked. She could feel water between her toes. She had a black fly bite on her face. Then, for a moment, the rain stopped, and a singing male “flew into the top of a tall bare scag (sic) in perfect view,” singing “as if it was a beautiful day in the Bahamas.” Then suddenly, she wrote, the sky darkened again, and the rain pounded down. The bird flew off into the dense foliage. She summarized her experience in a literary fashion, expressing how I would come to see our entire relationship at the end of ten years: “Something somehow biblical had just occurred. The heavens opened; the heavens closed. In the brief interval between storms the bird sang.”

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Our cabin rental began in April 2012, just as the spring was unfurling its new buds. We drove through the farm gate and switchbacked up the gravel driveway to the top of the hill. I was in awe of the vast expanse of undulating land we could call our own every weekend for a year, having grown up in an apartment with no land and not much nature, and given that our regular house sat on a 0.17-acre lot. A big granite-gneiss rock formation was our front-yard sculpture, hovering over the steep meadow slope facing the one-acre pond down below and the endless views of no cars, no neighbors, and no development. Just woods in the foreground and woods in the background and the curvy body of the Blue Ridge Mountains. Town was three miles away, a place without stoplights, a grocery store, or a hospital. The cabin had no clock, no microwave, no dishwasher, no TV, no internet, and no cell reception.
I felt primordial there.
Before we arrived for the weekend, Ellie sent me a long email with information about where we could trespass on nearby properties and bird, having alerted each neighbor about our presence. She gave me the low-down on each person, describing one man as, “Not as old as he looks—very country and toothless, in a truck.”
How we spent our first weekend is how we spent more than a hundred weekends at the cabin, driving out there on Friday afternoons, birding, hiking in Shenandoah National Park, cooking simple meals with fresh-picked garden goods from the small farm down the road, reading, playing Boggle, drinking locally made whiskey, reveling in the marvel of the refuge, and driving home on Sunday night. Each weekend, when I got home, I emailed Ellie, who was 83 that spring, to tell her about the cabin and our experiences that she might find interesting. The bear shimmying up and down the tree outside the cabin door. The rattlesnake on the front rocks. The phoebe parents feeding their young at a nest under the porch roof eaves.
“I’m so glad you’re enjoying our cabin,” she wrote to me after the second weekend, in what became dozens of emails after my reports. “We used to do so many of the things you find pleasurable out there.”
We emailed about cabin business, like mowing, pipes, and the septic tank. She planted ideas in my mind about things to do there, like ice skating on the pond if we ever had a cold winter again. “It takes a bit of courage to go out alone,” she suggested. She gave us the idea of carrying our things up the driveway in a toboggan when it was too snowy to drive. I reported the funny little interactions with neighbors, like when we heard gunshots and learned that someone’s chicken had been scared literally to death. We talked about strange country problems, such as when Neil got struck by electricity through the old telephone when talking to me at home during a lightning storm and I thought he had been shot. There was no one else besides Ellie who would find such minutia funny, charming, or nostalgic.
Ellie was renting out the cabin because she wasn’t quite ready to let go of it yet, though Norman was unwell so they could no longer make the trip. We were her connection to the past.
When I told her how we celebrated Neil’s 55th birthday at the cabin with friends, she reported that she carved and installed a totem pole at the cabin from a tree she harvested there and hosted a birthday party for Norman’s 50th.
“We spent about a week out at the cabin, and it was not too hot,” I told her in another dispatch. “Nights were cool. I took a plein air painting lesson, we swam in the nearby swimming hole, hiked, and otherwise enjoyed ourselves.”
“I love getting your news,” she said and followed with many paragraphs of history about the cabin and the land and the people, as she often did.
Neil determined that early May was the best time for birding at the cabin because it’s migration time. The screen porch was lined up at canopy height, so birds alight on branches at eye level. Neil explained his excitement as, “We can just be sitting in a rocking chair and see a Scarlet Tanager or Blue-headed Vireo!” At the same time, the meadow was perfect for species like Eastern Phoebes and Indigo Buntings, which prefer the edge between open space and forest. Neil compiled a bird list over two years that included migratory birds such as Wood Duck, Broad-winged Hawk, and Red-headed Woodpecker, as well as Worm-eating Warbler and Cerulean Warbler.
I shared this list with Ellie. She said she hoped Neil wouldn’t feel too bad when she told us all the other warblers she and Norman used to see there in the ‘70s and ‘80s, before the county re-routed the creek and road below after some road floodings and tore down many old trees. “We lost our warblers,” she said and sent a list of the ones no longer seen—among them the Bay-breasted Warbler, Kentucky Warbler, Prairie Warbler, Yellow-breasted Chat, and Canada Warbler.
My friendship with Ellie was such an unexpected side effect of this cabin. She was twice my age. In DC we didn’t run in the same social circles, but both of us inside-the-Beltway residents were attracted to the same 40 acres of the same rural Virginia county, coming here with our husbands in our early 40s, for simplicity and a change of pace. Both of us were Jewish women interested in the outdoors, which was slightly atypical for our families’ and ancestors’ histories. (Some of her family have thought she was as nuts as some of mine thought of me.) Decades before the pandemic craze, she and I became what she called, “City people who have become country weekenders.”
And both of us were Yankees interested in writing about the South. In the same year she and Norman bought the cabin, Ellie—who once wrote for the Washington Evening Star, Washington Post, New York Times, and authored more than 10 books—began traipsing around Virginia, North Carolina, Kentucky, and Tennessee, asking people questions about their Appalachian crafts for a book. She brought her two sons along as her photographers. “It was an adventure for us all. These people were so unlike people we’d ever spoken to,” she said. Together they published Mountain People, Mountain Crafts in 1974.
Tony had that same interest in southern places. In about 1994, he took a deep dive into his obsession with the Civil War and began his travels through eight states of the Confederacy—“A year at war, searching out the places and people who kept memory of the conflict alive in the present day.” His Confederates in the Attic, published in 1998, found its way into my hands when I was feeding my own curiosity about that strange war.
As for me, Neil’s prediction of Tony-mojo came to pass. My book, Shenandoah: A Story of Conservation and Betrayal, about slinking through the backcountry of the Blue Ridge Mountains, finding the remnants of old mountain homesteads and cemeteries hidden in the woods from when the people got kicked off their land to create the park, was accepted for publication a year after we first rented the cabin. And, after meeting Ellie and Tony in person a few times for lunch, Tony kindly blurbed my book.
In two years, Ellie—like a mother hen, my cabin mother, alongside my real mother—came to my book launch event and first public reading.

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Deep in a small village in southern Virginia where two rivers meet and a train whistles past twice a day, I was at a writing retreat in Spring 2018, working on another book, my version of Confederates in the Attic called Wandering Dixie: Dispatches from the Lost Jewish South. Having traveled to nine southern states from 2015 to 2017, investigating the history of small-town Jewish communities, Jewish Confederates, and Jewish slaveowners, I was writing some chapters, constantly asking myself, “What would Tony Horwitz do?” In the middle of my work, Tony emailed me.
A television production company had just optioned an article he had written 20 years earlier about the peculiarities of the county and town where the cabin is located. He wanted to know about any oddball happenings there that could make good fodder or backstory for the show. I offered him the controversy about the biggest inn buying up more and more properties of the tiny town against many of the locals’ wishes; a bruhaha between the been-heres and the come-heres about a possible bike lane being built along the main thoroughfare; and the fact that the Dukes of Hazzard museum had moved out of the county in protest of the county government not rezoning agricultural land to build a parking lot.
I’d kept in touch with Ellie even after she sold the cabin to a local hiking club after our second lease and we became the volunteer caretakers for it. She had mentioned that Tony was working on a new book about the South and the Civil War. I wrote back telling him about my project. “I’ve been working on it since at least 2015. Please tell me you are not also writing the same book!—your mom said you’re writing something about the South in 1860…?”
He answered, “Do not fear, I am not writing about Southern Jews, or only in a few sentences in book that’s about retracing Frederick Law Olmsted’s journey through pre-Civil War South as undercover correspondent for New York Times. From what I can tell, he was a bit of anti Semite and very rarely mentions Jews except to damn them.”
Indeed, a year later, in 2019, his book, Spying on the South: An Odyssey Across the American Divide, hit the bookshelves. In May, when I got my pre-ordered hardback, I emailed him to say it appeared we’d interviewed two of the same people, and for one, in Greenville, Mississippi, we’d gotten the same quote. “Weird scene, the Jewish Delta,” he said of the northwest section of Mississippi dotted by small towns we both passed through where Jewish communities once thrived.
“At moment staying with my mom,” he wrote. “1st day of book tour, before flying off elsewhere.”
While we chatted, I dared to ask him if he’d blurb my second book.
“Sure, send galleys along when you have them for potential act of blurbitude, can’t absolutely promise…but will do my best!”
Then, although he had told us many times that his only good memories of the cabin were of going out there to smoke with his friends when they were teens, he added, “One of these days I want to get out [there] with my Mom for a revisit.”
But two weeks later, after I’d completed reading Tony’s book, written in his signature style of random capers with unusual people, I heard the shocking news: The writer I admired who had built his career reporting from dangerous places in the Middle East and contentious areas in Middle America was walking down the street near his brother’s house after getting sandwiches when he collapsed and died—from cardiac arrest, age 60.

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Five months after Tony’s untimely death, neither Ellie nor I even noticed an opposite kind of news that occurred: On October 8, 2019: the Kirtland’s Warbler was taken off the endangered species list—not because it died out, but because it had recovered. It is still the rarest warbler in the United States, still living on the edge, with a population of 4,600 that remains dependent on human management. But I found it astonishing that we missed this unexpected twist in the Kirtland’s story. We never got to have a conversation about it.
Things had changed with Ellie. After the first couple years of pandemic time, she didn’t always remember who I was when I called, or she seemed to forget who she was talking to. She didn’t return my emails. I finally mailed a note to her senior living home but did not get a response, which surprised me because Tony once described her as someone “who never met a conversation she didn’t want to have.”
At the end of 2023, I googled her, and that’s when I discovered the obituary I never noticed in late 2022—Ellie’s, gone at age 93. None of her family had let us know. Perhaps they did not expect that the two “cabin people” from long ago would have missed her.
I never got to tell her that we are still at the cabin more than a decade later, that our lives have become entwined with it like the twisted honeysuckle vines called snake canes she highlighted in her book on Appalachian folk craft—not to mention the effect of the cabin on thousands of strangers who have stayed there as members of the hiking club. The club cabin has become a great equalizer—a place where any person of modest means can get away from the stress of regular life, watch the birds in the treetops, and feel, for a few days at least, like the weekend refuge in the mountain woods is their own.
I didn’t get to tell her, as I turned 50 and beyond, how lovely it has been for me to see myself so keenly in an older person. She was similar to my mother in many ways—interested in the arts and literature and in what is happening in the nation and the world and in her own city—but she was also so unlike anyone over 80 I’ve ever known, with a history of eagerness and fearlessness to engage in manual labor, a willingness to take risks, an interest in being rugged and even uncomfortable for fun.
I don’t get to tell her we’re still planning to visit the Kirtland’s wintering grounds in Eleuthera, a tiny island in the Bahamas, where she’d appreciate the challenge we’ll face finding them in their preferred habitat of goat farms, burned areas, and lands that have been bulldozed and abandoned.
But she has been with me lately.
In 2024, certain decisions within the club, combined with new rules from the county where the cabin is located, put the cabin’s continued operation at risk, like a treasured bird on the brink of extinction. I did a lot of emailing and calling and planning and strategizing, finally identifying the allies I needed to try to rescue it.
That’s when I started hearing Ellie’s calming voice in my mind: encouraging, grateful, pleased. Twice, I drove the three-hour roundtrip from home in the evening dark to provide testimony at county meetings, standing at a microphone at the front of the room under harsh white lights before the Planning Commission and the Board of Supervisors with my stomach in knots, filmed for YouTube, reported in the paper.
I’d never been in the position of fighting to fulfil the wishes of anyone I’d known after their death, never experienced the warm feeling that radiated through me like syrup as I did it. To have prevailed in saving the cabin—with the wooden trunk that Tony painted blue and red when he was a kid still inside it, and Ellie’s 1950s ceramic bowls, her lamps, her woven baskets and snake canes—to have ensured her legacy in this little patch of forest and meadow, for the future, for the people, for the birds, and for us—the only people left at the cabin who remember this family: well, it felt a lot like love.

Sue Eisenfeld’s writing has appeared in The New York TimesSmithsonian, The Forward, National Parks Traveler, and nearly all the publications and literary journals in the Washington DC area, including The Washington Post, Washingtonian, Potomac Review, Delmarva Review, Little Patuxent Review, Beltway Poetry Quarterly, Full Bleed, After the Art, and, now, Gargoyle. Her essays have been listed six times among the Notable Essays of the Year in The Best American Essays. She is a faculty lecturer with the Johns Hopkins University M.A. in Science Writing Program. www.sueeisenfeld.com