Two Brown Doors

Two brown doors side-by-side to apartments #4 and #6
upstairs where light is like a petulant child.

Through the first one we carried out an old woman
who screamed she had been attacked by a gizzard

in her macoute sack. On the other, the gash in the upper
right corner marked the night Orson Thomas was denied

love by the pole-dancer from the Body-Shop. I get no
back-story from other tenants whose dead-bolts lock out

disturbing noise. Something important happened here, I think,
knowing also I will shelve the hallway video when chatter

turns to the opening of the Bruegel exhibit next week
where hundreds will gather to view fallen angels blowing

horns, sharks devouring butterflies, a bloated universe
coming apart in breathtaking blue and rust and pure white.

Make an Appointment

I can’t tell you which days I will appear, show up
like an inverse proportion to allay your fears that cops

will quarantine us or substitute teachers will provide
stories that exclude black children. We have rules,

a Diversity policy, a No Solicitations policy,
and we throw all junk mail in our city waste containers

(the blue ones). But don’t waylay me claiming a few
porno flyers or Guns Rights ads got through. I’m here

often, but like an unsubstantial idea I’m not always
accessible. Sometimes I’ve already left when you see me.

Landlord, Landlord

“Ten Bucks you say I owe you?
Ten Bucks you say is due?
Well, that’s Ten Bucks more’n I’ll pay you
Till you fix this house up new.”
Ballad of the Landlord
Langston Hughes

Let’s say I own eight apartments in another world, in, say,
one of two places: back in the day of the Aquitaine’s

where I partitioned my land for knights who did my bidding
who divided that land for serfs who did their bidding. Or,

I owned property in the cerulean sky next to the main entrance
of a sport’s heaven where soccer was still the universal game.

I was the landlord and my job was maintenance. I collected
no rent. My main task in those worlds was to mediate a sense

of loss of self that accompanied an allegiance to an overlord
or a last second goal that disrupted an angel’s vision of perpetual

joy. I soothed, commiserated, empathized. I was admired.
I loved my job. But screams from a second floor apartment

suddenly remind me that I’ve owned this piece of land for over
three decades and stacked in a closet are histories of lives passing

through like beams of light covered by a raincoat. I wonder
why I have hung on so long, why they come, why they say they

are not free while here. I understand. I am not a Langston Hughes’
landlord, but each month I squeeze a rent check from the hand

that closed an old woman’s eyes or held back a husband’s fist.
Give it back, you say. Make your land a cooperative, a common

space with dividends for residents. Share the revenue, or else—
the revolution is coming. Maybe I should be a groundskeeper.

For a moment I’m with knights and angels.
For a moment I let time and Ten Bucks have their way.

They Came to the Party

Maybe an obligation, maybe free catering, maybe a good spot
to watch fireworks, they came with lawn chairs, coolers, appetites
to the summer party—this year to honor Abe and hear details
about the new stackables. They came
wearing feathers of
their clan, skin of their heirs, dances honed on medallion-sized
stages, talk tailored to resonate, laughter honking, children
unleashed like sandpipers, stories racing like Topi across the
Serengeti
they came with their signatures:
Jenny in blue Nikes, Raymond’s neck-tattoo, Tonetta’s bling,
Tad’s usual spectral self, wearing cologne, Angelina’s culottes,
Carl’s butt-crack showing, Dreg’s guitar packed and ready
they came
like they’d been plucked from a shredder and one-by-one
placed with tweezers on a microscope—see me alone, distinct,
I’m not a shadow you can walk by, a name to ignore, I’m new
to the earth, I’m special, I’m not where Abe is, I’m here.
They came.

Third Page of Apartment Lease--Departures

Assuming you have not destroyed, damaged, or otherwise
incapacitated the apartment, we hate to see you go. Some
of you lived here ten years (I watched your children grow),
some bore your burdens for a much shorter time. Your
name will escape me. Still, you will be somewhere in my
scrapbook, eternally connected to people you will forget.
10.  Think of yourself as a continuum.
11.   My cleaning crew will clean up after you
, but the apartment must be as clean as it was
when you moved in, meaning it will need to be
cleaner than you probably will clean it, so do
it again.
12.   Do not leave your thoughts behind. Severe
depression, unmanageable passions, sexual
secrets, disdain for the unwoke, personal
vengeance is your caravan, not mine.
13.   Some of you will go to war (invoking military
clause for permanent change of station). Yes,
it will be permanent. The permanent war.
Longer than most marriages. Can you imagine?
War and marriage in the same sentence.
14.   Unpaid bills are forwarded. If collection cowboys
show up, they will be shot in your name.
Departing may be “sweet sorrow” (I remember thinking
Juliet had an endearing lisp), but home will trap us
if we don’t leave it behind to find a home that will free us.

Phillip Raisor is a mixed bag—ex-jock, factory worker, landlord, scholar, and the author of eight books of poetry, nonfiction, and criticism. His work has appeared in such journals as The Southern Review, The Sewanee Review, Prairie Schooner, The Writer’s Chronicle, Studies in English Literature, and Contemporary Literature. In his teen years, he played on the losing team in the state championship game in Indiana that inspired Hoosiers, and was a freshman on the team with Wilt Chamberlain that lost a national championship in triple-overtime. Raisor received his B.A and M.A from Louisiana State University and a Ph.D. from Kent State. He taught at various universities and is now professor emeritus of English at Old Dominion University, where he initiated the creative writing program, a visiting writer’s series, and the annual literary festival.