Vestigial Home

I weep for you mucus-slathered mollusk
feelers seeking the home you’ve never reached
your body its own inland sea undulates in waves
slow as the night my mother’s breath left the earth

you terrestrial gastropod prey of tennessee middle-schoolers delirious
with briny purpose you creep on never able
to outrun their shakers treacherous
as hungry guillotines assassins poised mid-air

but aren’t we all on the hunt for a spectacle celestial rivers
primordial pull the force halting my mother’s heart
works on my own minute after minute hers
brimming with tragedy and love in equal parts my own

an appetite for perfection a sieve of lost time its tiny holes
whistle in mandalas of memory as everything calls for our death
at dusk I sit on my porch watch your passage sister slug
peerless in determination I measure my own distance to creep

you matriarch of seekers your trail is nothing if not longing
a glittering witness left behind the hope of unseen power
an invocation of the first whorl

Oubliettes

I.
no one says revolver any more
the perpetrator drew his revolver and fired into the crowd

II.
I’ve heard someone say that bravery is hope with fangs
I say I only know it by its feel
You told me once my poetry had teeth I want you to want
to fold me over and over again
until I fit in your palm curl your fingers around me
seal me in with your thumb overlapping
I’ll be a stone lodged inside your shoe
you’ll always feel my heat even in sleep I’m there
if you put me in your pocket even if you forget my name

III.
you said it looked good on me you meant the whiskey
little something fancy in my glass in my veins
the way I can drink most men
just can’t keep up the night
the weight of the clouds waiting
to release their secrets onto the both of us
I didn’t hear your description
the process the birth of whiskey from grain
to mash to cask to my glass
The details you delineated wort and wash yeast and heat
never reached my ears I couldn’t hear you above the moonlight
Moved the candle closer to conjure a glimpse
to catch in your eyes what I hadn’t seen in years

IV.
I tell you the story of how I dared the semi driver
to barrel his truck all 18 wheels of it straight toward my throat
fast as possible to get close as a kiss
while I stood in the street in the middle like a milky dream
how I’d flatten my arms at my sides stay animal still eyes wild opened
rabbit hearted hoping to be grazed just this once
by the speed of an object in passing

Kari Ann Ebert is the winner of the 2020 Sandy Crimmins National Prize in Poetry and the 2018 Gigantic Sequins Poetry Contest, Kari’s work has appeared in journals such as The Night Heron Barks, Free State Review, Mojave River Review, Philadelphia Stories, The Main Street Rag, The Ekphrastic Review, and Gargoyle as well as several anthologies. Her honors include a residency at Virginia Creative Center for the arts (2021), Individual Artist Fellow in Literature: Poetry, Delaware Division of the Arts (2020), and fellowships from MidAtlantic Arts Foundation (2021), The Shipman Agency (2020), BOAAT Press (2020), and Brooklyn Poets (2019). Her limited-edition chapbook Alphabet of Mo(u)rning is available from Lily Press. Kari is a member of the Holly Branch of the National League of American Pen Women, and is an active member of the Dover, Delaware arts community.