My Seesaw Sideshow

According to them,
I’m a mess. Worse
than when I was born.
Which means I was better
before I could speak
for myself or at least try
to become the real me. I have

another nervous breakdown
bordering on a panic attack
when I’m tied up next to traditional
party favors that seem to assume
everyone feels the same. I do not.
I’m a seesaw handed a gift I don’t want.
Then I feel guilty for wishing to escape,
hide in my own space. But they don’t
get to set my boundaries or
make me pick a side. Step right up

and listen or leave and let me be me.
I’m not joining a control freak circus.
I’ll stick with my own chosen sideshow.
My own rules. My own choices
about what to put on display.
I can change my mind
anytime I want to.

This Waterbed Will Explode in Different Directions

He says geese are the assholes
of the animal kingdom. Loud waterfowl
with a different voice than his own.
He says you sound like a goose when you talk too much.

So you turn his old waterbed into a goose pond
that lays plastic eggs with nothing inside them.
You silently dream of fake fingers screaming.

He shoves fake eggs down
other people’s throats as if
everybody’s throats are meant to fit

into the same molded sheet covers or else
the same shaped basket. You think his snake charmer uses
sordid sheet music. You also think piano keys can morph

into feathers until the bed flies up to the ceiling
then breaks down and drowns the floor, until outdated rotten
candy wrappers are ripped apart and sinking.

Some of his angry stuffed animals try to grab you
and drag you down too. Some of them try to swim
away from you. He yells at his stuffed pig to attack,

but the pig can’t swim. Unfortunately neither can you
and you temporarily forgot about the giant snake, backtracking
you into a horror scene from your past

in which a snake floats out of an old-fashioned
zoo swimming pool, plunges itself towards you
as soon as you fall asleep, tries to replace your comforter
with toxic venom, tries to constrict your tongue,

tries to mold your brain or at least make you
repeatedly question yourself. Despite your questions,
your hissing phantoms will bite back and recreate themselves
no matter how far below the surface you’ve descended.

Death is an Amusement Park Ride

My mind’s mirror turns itself into
a carousel moving faster and faster
as if it wants me to fall off the horse
and into the back of a hearse.
The carousel horses all morph into hearses,

but still play the same song. Cheap amusement
park rides fall apart, toss those who were on top
down and then underneath the ground.
A neigh becomes a scream then nothing.
My mind’s mirror turns itself off.

Dissecting Your Brain

Slaughterhouse slanted backwards,
dripping red from distorted wires,
computerized meat hooks. Robot brain
coming to rip off yours.

I Try To Be Real But Why?

So many people don’t seem to care
what’s really real or not.
So many people don’t seem to care
how others really feel or why.
My mind is my own warped confessional
booth filled with past secrets and self-doubt

and lack of disclosing
everything. Pretending I don’t care
what others think about me.
I don’t pray. I don’t always believe
in myself or much of anything else

or anyone else’s sincerity.
I think this current world is brimming
with lies, half-truth, false prophets,
propaganda, other forms of fakery.
I try less often than I used to. What is
the point when so many seem to be hooked

into scrolling around on AI generated
screens that are spying on us while
attempting to inform us of what’s important
fake news. Maybe I’m paranoid or
maybe I’m exaggerating before
I start to dumb myself down too.

Maybe we’re all taking part in a long strand
of sticky orange circus peanuts,
artificially flavored until we expire.

Juliet Cook doesn’t fit inside an Easy-Bake Oven and rarely cooks. Her poetry has appeared in a peculiar multitude of literary publications. She is the author of numerous poetry chapbooks, most recently including red flames burning out (Grey Book Press, 2023), Contorted Doom Conveyor (Gutter Snob Books, 2023), Your Mouth is Moving Backwards (Ethel Zine & Micro Press, 2023), REVOLTING (Cul-de-sac of Blood, 2024), and Blue Stingers Instead of Wings (Pure Sleeze Press, 2025). Her most recent full-length poetry book, Malformed Confetti was published by Crisis Chronicles Press. You can find out more at https://julietcook.weebly.com/.