My Dad Never Said He Loved Me
Ode to the Artichoke
Why do we labor for something bitter and scant? Its atoms mute
and dry. I could use a heart for so much more than siphoning blood through the body.
There would be no need to trim the leaves or boil it upside down.
I could grasp its cords that thrum its rhythm and use its petals
to map the way back to something smaller and sweeter—
bursting with sugar to help us move another summer closer to our last.
Notes from the Anne Sexton Suicide Club
1. God-wink
We all believed in the God-wink— that’s what she called it.
The right path. The circle of hands, eyes, breasts, and cocks.
I could ask for urge and impulse But why here, why now?
But, there are other factors to consider. Affairs. Will. A fish
trying to slip away from strong hands. What a shock to not have breath
in a such a secure place. Love is nothing personal.
The wink still breaks me even when there is enough
good to make a baby star scream.
Jona Colson is Queer poet, educator, and translator. His poetry collection, Said Through Glass, won the Jean Feldman Poetry Prize from the Washington Writers’ Publishing House. He is also the translator of Aguas/Waters by Miguel Avero and the co-editor of This Is What America Looks Like: Poetry and Fiction from D.C., Maryland, and Virginia (2021). His poems, translations, and interviews have appeared in Ploughshares, The Southern Review, LitHub, and elsewhere. He is a professor of ESL at Montgomery College and lives in Washington, D.C.