Spring in The Thumb

A Keystone Light box in the window
filling the space beside the AC unit. Shit,
the place needs siding, a fresh coat of paint
on the garage door, a new roof put on.

I’ll be working, pinching pennies all summer.
But today snow is through thawing,
yards turning, sprouting green.
Out back my mutts roam the field,

noses down, searching for dead critters
to roll around in. I walk the dirt road
toward the bend in the Belle River.
Tackle box in hand, I sit on the flat rock,

thread a hook through a nightcrawler,
and drop a lure into the slow current.
Overhead you might expect new growth
birdsongs filling the air, but there’s not.

Grape vines choke this river. Heavy brush
weaves together like dreamcatchers
along both banks, mud holding the landscape
quietly in place. I fiddle fuck with fishing line

in my teeth, rigging different spoons,
looking for something that’ll flash
in this dirty water. There’s rustling where
the creek intersects the river, a doe and two fawns

looking for some place to bed down.
I watch the newborns stumbling along
the pitch of the riverbank, momma doe
dropping her head, taking care to guide

their spotted bodies with her neck. I set
the hook when my line jumps, glimpse
a silver fish break the surface, then watch
my lure land on the riverbank. The doe turns

her head toward me, body tense and ready
for what’s next. Our eyes meet, gazing through
the thin shadows dimming this landscape. I light up
a Marlboro, let smoke create movement between us.

When A Rural Woman Gets Mean

Terry Road Martha put a hurting on me, boy.
I came home late one night, about six in the morning,
and my phone was dead and she’d been calling me
and, brother, I was piss drunk, you better believe it.
Don’t get fooled by long wavy hair and freckled
cheekbones, she threw hands as sure as any man.
You see a rural woman get mean, that’s something you don’t forget.
You see a rural woman sitting on the front porch swing,
cigarette between her fingers, red rings around her eyes
when you pull in the driveway. You see a rural woman
wearing nothing but shorts and one of your work shirts,
titties bouncing haphazard, gait deliberate stomping
barefoot across gravel, nothing between you and her
but air and four-letter words and that last prayer you can muster
because you’re fucked up and your head is pounding
and beagles are barking in their kennel because even they know
you’re fucked. And above you there’s nothing
but gray clouds, a light misting of rain coming down, a dim pink
haze from a dawn you don’t want to see. All you want to see
is the back of your own eyelids, because it’s Sunday
and you’re staring down the barrel of another sixty hour week
starting first thing tomorrow morning. And you’ve got pressure
at the beltline, skin clammy, sweat on your forehead, beads
on your upper lip and you know a beer shit is coming.
Duder you’re going to hit that toilet like lightning on a lake,
but not before Martha has her way with you. And you try
walking past her, but god damn she pokes you with a lit cigarette
and fuck it smarts and she uses your full name like she’s your mother,
for Christ’s sake. And you can’t hardly believe it but of course it’s
your own damn fault. And even if you were in the state of mind
to produce words, it’s not like you’d be able to talk your way out of this shit.
It’s taking an iron will. You’re clenching your asshole so tight
your low back starts burning because you know if you shit your pants
standing in the driveway while Martha’s motherfucking you, while roosters
are crowing and turkey buzzards are circling high above the treeline,
while farmer Fred and the good lord God and all the euchre-playing ghosts
of your ancestors up in heaven are watching, brother, you know
you’ll never live that down.

Return to Nature

Ten minutes every cocksucking morning
standing in front of the bathroom mirror,
water running, fine-toothed comb in hand,
fixing fucking cowlicks. I need a haircut
like Jesus Christ needs a better PR team.
Prohibit the freaks from standing at
the microphone. That’s what I say.
Ten years hard labor to the fascists,
a long desert expedition
for those perverts compulsively girding.
May they all return to nature,
gentle and serene. What we need
is working women to worship, hammers
ball peen, a jar of old thumb tacks,
scented candles lit on every sill, pie crusts
and warmth at the end of the day.
Last night I held Susie like a prayer,
blessed by the closeness
of our leather loveseat. Radiant blue
light glowed from the TV. I watched
the ceiling fan rip smoke from her
cigarette to shreds. My tongue was water
rolling along the shallow creek bed
of her collarbone. I was a hound holding
a rose between his teeth. Couldn’t sleep
so I sat on our porch swing smoking weed.
And the air around me was humider than mud.
And a cold hard rain thundered off the asphalt.
In the midst of it, I walked
behind the shed and took a piss
on my neighbor’s tomato plants.
Small victories in a battle
of attrition because fuck Glenn.
Fuck his yuppie chicken coop
and his crisis of masculinity.
I hope that turkey fryer torches
his garage next Thanksgiving.
I hope one day all I see are burnt cedar trees
left standing in his yard.
I’m not an ugly person,
it’s just this accumulation of happenings,
mostly harmless, the winding
of the cuckoo clock, another year
too similar to the last. I don’t know how
to talk about it. Maybe just one more cup
of coffee, maybe if my old man hadn’t
been a drunk, a liar, a cheat, maybe if I shaved
my head bald and wore a top hat and adopted
a dialect of happiness, maybe I wouldn’t
be strangled with grief, I wouldn’t
cuss at my windshield or cry into
my shirt sleeve. Fuck it.
Give me that snot stain.
Give me my work flannel stinking of dirt
and sawdust and two cycle exhaust. I want
a fat forest that needs pruning. I want
the sun’s gaze bleaching my neck hair.
Lord give me a chainsaw
that turns over one rip on the pull cord.
Lord give me teeth
that stay sharp, give me a stump
Susie can sit on, give me some place
for working, sweat stinging my eyes,
engine vibrations tingling my forearms
long after sawing is through. I want to sleep
beside a wood burning stove, pistol
resting on my nightstand, danger
rubbing its hide against thin cabin walls.
Lord show me a single beam of light
shining through a break
in the chinking and I’ll find
the source of it on the other side.

Jeff Thomas is a poet from The Thumb. His poems center his experiences working blue collar jobs and growing up in rural southeast Michigan. Entering his second year studying in Eastern Washington University’s MFA program, Thomas is an instructor of creative writing and college composition, and serves as poetry editor of Willow Springs Magazine, as well as workshop leader for the Catalyst Community Workshop in Spokane. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in The Glacier, Blue Collar Review, Paterson Literary Review, and Speckled Trout Review.