Three Sisters
Serafina and the Sex Offender She is beside herself, shows me the letter with shaky hands. Local police report a registered sex offender has moved to the area, not far from her squat bungalow in the Jersey Pine Barrens. Serafina curtails her morning walks, plops a Virgin Mary statue on the front lawn, double locks her doors. My never-married aunt remains safe behind familiar borders as she scans the street from her windows.
Sofia and the Storm First thing in the morning, Sofia turns to the weather channel, studies patterns that reveal sleet, snow, rain, heat, fog. Today, a storm snakes up the Coast heading for Sofia’s Brooklyn flat. Sofia rarely ventures outside, prefers to avoid the vagaries of weather. She is content behind glass doors leading to her terrace where canvas chairs remain folded, smeared with bird droppings, dead bugs, rotting leaves.
Filomena and the Phone Another phone is delivered to Filomena’s row house in Queens. This new model, with its giant numbers, is her seventh in two years. Filomena keeps a phone in each room, and a few more to spare in the cellar. My shy, socially awkward aunt does not mind that incoming calls are sales pitches or wrong numbers. They keep her connected to the world beyond her walls. Besides, she says, you never know when someone important might call.
The Lonely Stones
In this sprawling gray complex of the dead, I clutch scrawled directions torn from an old journal. Section 8, Block 15, Lot 9, Grave 2. After a long while, I give up, knock on the office door, tell them I can’t find my mother. I don’t say I have not visited in years. They hand me a map, and now it is raining and this unforgiving ground dissolves to mud. I head for St. Francis of Assisi, turn my back, walk past three more rows, take a dozen steps to the left, see her stone. I see what remains of the hyacinth ordered for her birthday. My fingers trace the fading inscription:<i> Beloved Wife and Mother</i>. I try to forget how we moved away, picked up our lives without her. Now, it’s dark. More rain. I leave this cluster of solitary shadows, vow to return next year.
Circles
I style and spray my bubbled hair into a globe, show up on time to type, file, fetch coffee for men we call Mister. I work at the local plant that molds
ground beef into perfect round patties for the new fast food chains, places we once cruised for older guys to buy us malt liquor. I suppose we drank to forget
the vanilla futures waiting to claim us. These days, I try to forget my husband is cheating on me with his best man’s date, try to ignore the crushed cans
lining the floor of our dented Chevy. I join the company bowling league, wear a polyester shirt stitched with a grinning hamburger patty.
I watch the balls spin and snake down the alley, watch pins explode as our team struts and high-fives each other. We move to the bar for gin & tonics. Later, I drive home
to our apartment stocked with wedding gifts, some still wrapped and bowed. Hours pass before I fold into bed. I leave the lights on for my husband.
Another year will be lost before I slip the ring off my finger, begin to imagine something beyond
this circle of silent despair that has girded my twentieth year.