Gargoyle 51Cover by Patricia StormsPublished 9/7/2006
1. Do you feel a desire to be thin? Yesterday, chocolate eggs and schoolboy cookies and cheese and cheese and carrot cake chips toast and butter butter and toast. OK, today, fruit fruit fruit yogurt juice juice.
2. Are you preoccupied with food? What it would take for you to look like Demi Moore in Striptease: shaving, rib removal, different ankles, silicone implants, less food less food less food shaving.
3. Do you feel societal pressures to be thin? At the party you are told how thin you look, how much weight you’ve lost, how great you look. I didn’t recognize you, say two people, two people you know, a man, a woman. How’d you get to be so beautiful, asks your friend Bob.
9. Do you have difficulty concentrating due to your concern with food? Do. Do imagine what you might eat right now. Do think of chili in a refrigerated plastic container, of four kinds of cheese in the fridge—asiago, Parmesan, cheddar, cream, Swiss—five. Corn chips. Do remember sitting in a poetry reading thinking about the cookies on the reception table. Do remember taking one right into the toilet stall with you as soon as the applause ended because you really had to go but you wanted to be sure everybody wouldn’t eat all the cookies first. Do talk about it in the abstract with therapists and sisters: Yes, parents raised in the War Years, yes, the culture of scarcity, yes.
10. Do you feel isolated because of your eating behavior?